It Gave Me A Nightmare

I'm not one of those lucky people who have a plethora of Cable channels to entertain me. We're happy with our "Limited Basic" and Netflix subscription.

What's frustrating is when something as big as the season premier of Jon & Kate plus 8 comes on and I can't watch it. I'm a fan of the show, for sure. I'm intrigued by the day-in/day-out duties of raising multiples.

Anyway, when all of this "buzz" was surrounding the season premier, I was bummed out. I wanted to hear THEIR words on the topic of their situation. I got to snooping on the internet and found that someone had posted the episode on YouTube. So, last night, I grabbed my headphones and plugged them into my laptop so I could watch parts 1 through 6.

I will not post any judgments on the situation. All I can say is that it broke my heart to hear them both insist that they are there for the kids. Back and forth they said that as if to solidify the importance of their children over the importance of their union. I can not judge, though. I can't imagine what life is like while lived in front of cameras and paparazzi. There are so many pressures, stresses, and expectations to deal with.

Anyway, I've said all that to say that show gave me a terrible nightmare. In my dream, the hubster had left Alex and I and changed his phone number. After hunting down his new number, I called him up and begged him to come home so we could work everything out. As I was crying, he was laughing and telling me about the new Mustang he purchased for himself. (by the way, all of this is COMPLETELY uncharacteristic of my hubs). At the end of my dream, he came to our house (now I KNOW it was a dream if we were living in a house rather than our condo) and talked to me. I just kept crying and saying, "I love you. Please don't leave us."

When I woke up, the hubs had his hand on my shoulder and was asking how I was feeling. I quickly snapped out of dream state and appreciated that he was there for me to talk to right when I woke up. (After getting over the groggy state, of course...)

Thank goodness dreams are over when you wake up. All is well.

*Edited to add what landed in my in-box moments after posting this...*

God is our refuge and strength,

always ready to help in times of trouble.

So we will not fear when earthquakes come

and the mountains crumble into the sea.

Psalm 46:1-2 (New Living Translation)